The Un-Ordinary Post
This is not poetry… or perhaps it is. I apologize for its length.
I don’t however apologize for its content.
It is Tuesday. Not just any ordinary Tuesday, but it is ‘this’ Tuesday. A day of specialness within me. Not because it just happens to be the Tuesday before thanksgiving, for my emotions are quite mixed and confused as to the concepts of celebration of ‘thanksgiving’. Although I also feel that anything that brings families together in conversations, love and kindness is something of magnificence.
This Tuesday is bathed in magnificence for reasons far separated from any pilgrimage. It is a Tuesday that I have been fortunate enough to experience. Awakening this Tuesday morning with far more stress factors than what is listed on many psychological web sites, beyond the level that most often will destroy your mind as well as your physical existence and in addition having to deal with not one… but two life threatening and nearly always fatal diseases, three months beyond the prognosis of my survival, un-operatable and most often incurable by any known human means, I am sitting here in my chair before the window, awaiting the exhilaration of the first moment of dawn on this most glorious of days… Tuesday. Although there are those who may dispute the well being of my mind.
Medical analysis, theoretical observations and the statistical law of averages, all indicate that on this Tuesday in November, that I should no longer be in existence within this world… much less maintaining the ability to sit before the window and anticipate the beauty of dawn. I must pause while I linger in the knowledge that I have been presented with this most precious of gifts. Yet… It fills me with great wonder. Why would such a gift be presented from the universe unto one of such an ordinary existence?
I am poor… far beneath the levels required for financial survival. My resources have dwindled into nothingness, absorbed by the medical professionals that have determined that, in reality, there is nothing further within their vast knowledge or within modern technology that can be used to benefit my physical survival. Yet… I am here, awaiting the dawn.
I am seeking only enlightenment… Is that why I have been given this opportunity to await the dawn?
I am only pursuing my desire to share love and kindness with those whom I encounter within my current existence. Is that why I have been given this moment to bathe in the first light of dawn?
Perhaps I have been spared until this moment in time because I write of sadness that has at times encompassed my being. Perhaps it is the darkness of which I have presented to the world that has on occasion engulfed my mind and my soul. It must be the injustices of which I have written that has justified the universe to spare my departure from this world.
Maybe it is my dedication to enlighten others of the abuse that occurs in our world or the mistreatment of other beings like the abuse of women, domestic abuse, child abuse, animal abuse, discrimination of any kind… or how our veterans and elderly are so often pushed aside so undeservedly.
Perhaps it is that I speak so often of love…
That would be the most logical explanation for the universe to shine its light upon me within my life of such ordinary circumstances. Love of one another, of all beings and of all creatures has always been the answer to the understanding of our world, yet… it too is so often cast aside.
Perhaps I should not attempt to understand the reasoning of the universe and what decisions are made far beyond my control or my expectations.
So I will ask all of you who have made it this far through this most
un-ordinary rant, whether you be an extrovert or an introvert or caught within the realms of the ordinary… to join me in my celebration of this most beautiful Tuesday… by sharing the love that is within you and shining your light upon another, so that they too, may feel the exhilaration of feeling that they are loved. It will enlighten the both of you and perhaps… the dawning of tomorrow will be a little brighter for the world.
Wait just a moment…..
The light of dawn has shined through my window and onto my face, igniting my reasoning to a greater level… The reason I’m still around on this beautiful Tuesday morning… to absorb the magnificence of the dawn… is perhaps… just perhaps… because I made the universe smile…
With that chicken poem….